It's been a while

I have a lot of down time today while working the registration table at my event, so thought I'd post a little something for my one reader in Internet-land. :)

I've been wondering why I don't feel more excited when I think about the baby's arrival. I think it's because I am hesitant to be excited for things anymore since we've had big disappointments before. It's not that I don't trust and believe that our baby will arrive on time and perfectly fine in every way, but more that I can't comprehend what that will be like or feel like and therefore can't be excited about it because it's an unknown.

Kind of weird but that's what I think is going on right now. It's easier for me to be excited about our puppy and his accomplishments because he is here and now, whereas thinking about the future is less exciting because it's not here yet. Is this a good thing? I'm not sure. Maybe it's teaching me to wait on the Lord more.

When things happen then I can be happy? Are things supposed to determine my happiness? Probably not. But, it is nice when things work out for good, regardless.