14 weeks and counting!

This is a milestone for me. After miscarrying twice around the 8-9 week mark, it's a relief to be able to get to 14 weeks and feel like I've got all those first trimester worries behind me.

However, I'd like for the queasiness to stop now! This morning I opened my fridge and gagged from the smell. Now I'm sitting in my office after eating a very light lunch (salad, fruit, soup) at a work event and feeling nauseous. WHY???

I hate feeling sick so much. It's also frustrating because I'm not in control of my own body. There are things changing and happening inside of me that I can't control, seemingly no matter what I eat or how much (or how little, to be more accurate haha) I exercise or how much water I drink.

However, as my friend (a new mom herself) reminded me, it's good to have symptoms because it means the pregnancy is going okay. I understand the logic behind that, but I'm still not happy when I'm queasy.

We have started preparing for getting our dogg-o, which is exciting and nerve-wracking all at the same time. We are going to drive down to see him tomorrow, and then we will bring him home April 12. I'm planning on working from home that week so that I can start working on crate training with him, and then we will start on the "schedule" I've made up, which will involve one of us coming home everyday to let him out and feed him until he gets old enough to fully control himself for a full day.

I think this will be good practice for having a child, but dogs aren't quite as demanding... I hope. Either way, it's a change in the series of changes that we are making/having occur this year, which are both exciting and scary for me. I have tended to not like change very much, but that is something I am trying to change (haha). I do still find myself longing for the times when things were simpler and everyone got along all the time, but that's not where I am now and I have to live in the present (which is truly a gift!).

I've started to get more excited about seeing my body change. I am kind of hoping I'll start showing more soon so I can get some funny pregnancy shirts and announce that I'm preggers at work that way! I feel weird about just randomly announcing it to people. If I can wait until after I get the dog settled in that might be better, but I feel like I'm already showing (although likely I just look like I've gained weight!) so I don't know if people can tell or not yet. If they can, they aren't saying anything, which might be just as well!

I've also noticed more intense moods happening lately. If I start to react to something, sometimes it feels like a flood of emotion starts to wash over me, making the reaction more intense. This has happened with both negative and positive feelings. I read Jenny McCarthy's "Belly Laughs" book last week, and I can relate to her stories about being "Psycho Chick" a little more now. (I don't really recommend the book though. Parts were funny, but other parts were a little too gross for my liking. If you're really in need of laughs, try "Pregnancy Sucks" first - it helps to know it's ok to be upset and to hear other ladies' stories of woe.)

This is one of the longer posts I've done so far, so I think I'll sign off now. This weekend is going to be packed with family and other activities, so I'd better get some rest!